So I just found out, according to a friend, that for French class I have to write everything I do during spring break. So not only is everyone going to find out how much of a loser I am, but i also have to translate it into the French language?
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I have officially decided I’m going to watch Casablanca on my 16th birthday. Can’t get more depressed than that.
You really can’t.
Spring break has become uneventful.
I thought maybe spring would be amazing and that amazing things will happen as I amazingly accomplish these amazing things. So far, I have to decided between staying in high school or going to college, studying for 6 french exams, writting 2 essays, and other things I can’t seem to remember.
Great.
…..to be continued
what if he’s one of those creepy guys that stay up late at night just to watch porn?
or
what if he’s one of those super clingy, emotional guys who won’t stop bugging you?
or
what if he’s one of those assholes that don’t know how to even spell commitment and just wanna get laid?
or
what if he’s a secret serial killer and is out to avenge the death of someone really close to him so he takes it out on the opposite sex?
or
what if he’s absolutely perfect in everyway but he’s just not right for me and whatnot?
i need a life.
SPRING BREAK GODS OUT THERE, DON’T LET ME GET SWALLOWED BY ALL THIS HAUNTING QUESTIONS.
I need to take things slower. You know how some people go through things once and they get the message? Or sometimes they don’t go through anything at all and just know they shouldn’t do something because of others mistakes? Definitely not me. Unfortunately, its become a problem that the only way i can learn from my mistakes is if I make the mistakes a gazillion times.
Ain’t life something?
I feel better though..and even though its not 100% and the next few weeks should be “eh”, eventually my spring will come out and I will finally get that thing I’ve been looking for. <—And no, I’m not referring to a male companion…I’m talking about something different. Somewhere different. Just different.
I can’t wait for summer.
so i have a friend, you know who you are, and she wanted me to post something…here it is. CAUTION: READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.
Who are you? You’re nothing to me.
You were once the wind I needed for my kite to rise in that hot july afternoon.
I once needed your strength to pull me against the strong currents.
But now..it’s as if the wind were a mere illusion, a mere fantasy. As if the wind was a product of the the thousands of tangled thoughts that roam through my forest of doubt.
But I’ve set things in order and I’ve come to my senses.
Is it better to pretend and live a lie, or to know and carry anger?
I don’t know you anymore, did I ever know you at all?
Or was i just ....
im looking for a new best friend. not one who i can only talk to 3 times a week and only at certain times of the night. not one who i barely see and have to share her with someone else who im supposed to call my best friend as well. NO. i love her to death, i do. whenever i talk to her she makes me laugh and only the thought of “why we didnt meet sooner” creeps in my mind; but im sick of it. i want a best friend i can talk to whenever i call. one i can trust with everything and won’t feel like such a dufus for the things i do and the things i say, one who supports me and tells me when im wrong. sure, i have one thats perfect right now. but how about one who can come to my place and just chill, and i go to hers and do the same? one who we can just say the randomest things and understand each other? one who can think of me as her best friend to me? im tired of one sided relationships. but most of all, i hate my STUPID WHINES AND BITCHYNESS.
i hate highschool.
signed,
the whiny tears of an underprivileged girl.
yesterday was a full moon and i can honestly say i was happy. i spent the day at the church festival in Hialeah with my two sisters and Alex. we ate ice cream and nachos, chilled and rode some rides till Alex got his bracelet taken away –_- i didn't really care, but apparently it was a huge deal to Harry. ANYWAYS, then we went home i talked to some family members i hadn't spoken to in a while and then we went to burger king and then we went to pick up my grandma and then i went home. my Netflix movie was sitting on my desk so i decided to watch it & as always, i cried like a sucker. i just might watch it again since i forgot to turn it in. sigh. now off to the real world. have to do homework and my grandmas here with my cousins.
ciao.
