B.C./A.C.

I can separate my life in two diffferent phases: Before Casey, After Casey.

I've been wondering lately why I settle so much for things, and it's because after him I have no choice but to settle.

It's 11:46PM and I have to study for chemistry. Here I go.

Waiting, Wishing, Thinking

Drained.

P.S. I Love You is on TV and I started crying within five minutes. I want to keep crying.

I keep thinking I'm closer and finally reaching an understanding of many things in my life, but instead situations continue to be added to the pile and more unanswered questions continue to be left behind.

God, You know I hate surprises, what are You doing up there?

Delightful

I always wondered why I had random pageviews. Why are people reading a blog full of rants and teenage thoughts?

It's a vampire website. Sounds ridiculous, I know, but some vampire website is looking at my site. Thanks! Not sure what it helps with but if it makes a difference then why not, right?

ugh

I have so much fucking studying to do for my two exams tomorrow, it's late, I just had my first energy drink and all I can do is sit here and think...do you like me? do I like you? Like..like LIKE you?

Ugh. I'm almost 19 and I still act like a friggin' twelve year old.

Your nickname of "california" is perfect because I don't really know how I feel about California. It's got some great sights, like San Francisco, Yosemite, and Disneyland but I don't like LA, it makes me feel uncomfortable. Am I willing to fly long distance to California and accept that I may be around LA, but tolerate it because I have San Francisco on the other end?

seriously, I need to study.

Take it sloooooow

Finally, after days and weeks of wanting to post something new on my blog I've finally gotten around to doing it.

I don't even know where to start. So many things have changed, so many things are going on that I don't even know how I can just sit here and sip my delicious cup of vanilla spice tea while listening to John Legend.

Three things I know right now:

1. My mother is my superwoman
2. God is taking my wheel 
3. I miss my family

 I haven't had time for any of my family members or sisters and I hate it. I don't wanna just text and catch up with them, I want to see them and make memories. Sooner or later I'll get to hang out with them, maybe Good Friday? For now, school and work. And YES club! I'm a part of the YES club, can you believe it?

Hmm...my love life? We'll see how it goes ;) possible love interest in the air? I don't know, we'll see what God has in store for me.

I'm doing very well at Panera, I got promoted to Associate Trainer and perhaps an Environmental Captain soon, crazy lol.

I'm not doing so well in school, but I'm going back to studying to keep my grades. I'll keep this updated soon, I hope.