pretty two-faced liars and rocks

just when i thought that our friendship was growing a little bit more and more from the last wreck...it came to a hauling stop when my phone rang. it was my sister informing me with information i took rather well compared to my other acts of jealousy. but ive learned that jealousy takes you nowhere and if they have friends, so do you. you know what, she can have that two-faced liar who can't seem to be straightforward even though she claims she is. and you know what sucks? this is all family related...drama never seeks to escape me. because on the other side, me and my best friend are on rocky roads right now. i guess its my fault for over-reacting, but if you had plans with your best friend, why would you exclude the fact from your mother where you were going? i just dont get it 8/ but on the bright side, im almost done with my big project and some friends are coming over from nicaragua. how exciting -_- also, winter's here :DD PLEASE LET THIS YEAR END WELL!!!!


signing off,
what the hell am i doing

bus ladies are freaks

so today...was just another day...it was just ok. something always goes wrong, i mean it has to doesn't it? well we had a fire drill but it wasn't that bad because i was in algebra. then in my last block my english teacher wasn't there, how exciting ^_^. and the conversations with Fernando, Jodie, Lety, Brandon, Carrel and Adam were completely unexplainable! ha ha "you see your parents naked?" no comment! and then when the bell rang and Jodie asked me to stay with her a while because her mom was picking her up. but i said no..cause well i had to take the bus. but i couldn't take the bus[her boyfriend came later, so im sure she was nowhere near lonely]. why you ask? because it came late..like an hour late. and I'm telling you...this lady is a freak 8/ who knows what she did in that hour or so that made me miss my amazing soap and make me so hungry since i only had bugles for lunch. but whatever, I'm drinking this carbonated coke right now. now gotta work on my religions project...ta ta.

boy-next-door..?

I've always gone with the idea that a girl should never fall hard or get too attached to a man because she'll end up hurting herself. She'll end up hurt by the conniving asshole she was with. So then how come i can't follow up my own advice now? How come when one tries the hardest...its just not possible? Hm..i can feel the soft rain on my hands and pruney toes like it was just yesterday. The darkness of the night with only the full moon above. The distant smell of crispy tacos, now put away thanks to the pouring rain. And the thing i remember the most, my warm fingers and hand tucked away nicely in his arms. The saddest part: this happened a year and a half ago..and we practically haven't talked since...and why is that? we live in different countries, different continents. Distance doesn't matter? Well...it shouldn't. But they guy is just a faint reminder of that one summer where i thought i was in love..or maybe it was..who knows. But one thing i do know is that everything happens for a reason. Someday I'll meet this charming prince again and he'll rescue me from my overly desperate need to run away from everything. He'll lock me with his eyes and kill me with his soul. The typical boy-next-door, literally. But that was when i was young, when i didn't know any better. Just desperate for attention and a little love from something I'd never tried. And i got it, but i warn thee, be careful what you wish for.

upgrade

so my last blog i deleted...it was just...i dont know...i needed a fresh start. something new for a new 09, an improved chick thats made drastic changes in the past year. i love who i was, but i dont think id like to go back and change it for what i have. ive lost many friends and made some new ones. im trying to save some friendships that mean alot to me...friendships i can imagine myself with in a few years. i dont know where im going, i dont know where my lifes headed to, i dont know what carreer path to take and i dont know if at all im a good person..sometimes people dont need to be reminded of what they do...but loved for who they are. im not your average girl, and at this point in my life..i try to be hopeful that maybe the other side of the grass is greener, and that maybe life has a meaning after all...thats all for the start of this new blog.

xoxo
much love,

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